Meaning....

Thought I might as well start with a poem I'd written a little while back. It's a wonderful thing really - Poems. One moment you feel as though writing poems would be the same as making a hole in a brick wall with your fingers. The very next moment however, when you are turned on emotionally, all brick walls seem to be made of hot cheese. There are no poems without emotions. They really are one of the best vents to let out your feelings; feelings that hurt, that burn you inside, that give you that mysterious sensation of falling infinitely but at the same time making you feel human again, making you feel yourself. They make you feel weak, yet strong; sad, yet happy; They give you pain, but such an enigmatic pain that begins to feel sweet. It's a drug really, you may be afraid of emotions, but when you experience them, you get such a pleasant feeling, one you get so used to that you can't live without it. And poems are poems cuz they show us as we are inside. They are pure, untouched by this world, something you should respect for all that is worth. Well, here's the poem...

MEANING

I fail to understand what I ought to do,
the time of uncertainty when I look at you
In your eyes, I see my soul,
my miserable self without a goal...

falling deep into this river,
feelings so deep, emotions that sever,
growing tired of my expectations,
growing sick of my heart's vibrations...

Reminiscing about my lonely past,
Seeing the present that's moving so fast,
The ship of my future with a broken mast,
My Life, My soul that's not meant to last !

I look into your eyes, nothing I can see,
Nothing but my own true self, my lonely life and me,
Lookin' into a sea of help, t'was never meant to be,
I just wanna leave, but my tears won't set me free...

I want to run away, but my legs won't take the call,
I want to move along, but my spirit takes a fall,
I want to calm myself, my heart just goes on bleeding,
I want to live again, but life no more has a meaning !!!

There it is. I wrote it when I was feeling really sad, I didn't know what to do. I wrote this and suddenly, the world was all better. Do comment on how it is.